Her life had changed. The dream she had when she married her husband did not come true. The final divorce court date had been set.
“This is a time in my life which I simply have to get over. I have to let it go. But I don’t know how. The effect it has on me is so terribly draining. I can feel it in my body, my mind, my spirit. The more I try, the more I seem to be stuck. I feel such a failure for not being able to put all of this disappointment and sadness and anger behind me. It seems to be present in every moment of my life ….” Her voice trailed into a deep sigh.
The roundness of her bent shoulders gave a perfect picture of a person who was exhausted by the struggle of emotional pain. Her green eyes, large almond shaped, looked dull and devoid of sparkling life. In spite of her good efforts at “letting go”, she found that just the opposite was happening. Why?
Many weekend workshops are being held in a worldwide effort to empower the participants. The goal of self sufficient lives lived in a state of mind control is very alluring. I see many people who judge themselves harshly because they fail in their attempts to achieve this state of bliss in their earth-life, in spite of all their efforts. Not that effort is ever in vain. To want to grow to be more, not less, and giving this ideal attention in your life, is never time wasted. However, life seems to have a mind of its own. No one can predict or know what the next second could bring. The attempt to control the path of life usually ends in disappointment or disbelief. It is at this point that people move into the mindset of “letting go”, as if any event in life could be less important than the next. I thought it might help her by telling her my story of the inner garden.